ENCHANTED ♥

2012-02-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

Just want to make things clear, this fight wasn't brought up by me. But now if you declare peace, I accept.

It's tired fighting over blogs anyway, and I wish you all the best in your life then. :)

2012-02-02T18:05:00.002+08:00

'cause I'm not coming back I'm closing the door
I used to be tripping over missing you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone, baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dial

Yknow it's over when the yearning and the burning inside your heart ain't there anymore.
You know you're through when he don't do to you and move you like the way he moved you before
And you wanna put him close, but your heart has frozen
You kiss him but his eyes don't close
Then he goes out of your heart forever
It hurts you but you know it's better'

2012-01-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

You don't understand me, it's okay. I've never opened up to anyone anyway. Because I've never told you what I feel.

Have you ever had that kind of feeling, that you feel like crying, but then you know no one would understand anyway, so you just put on that facade and smile like you're okay? It sucks.

And now I don't even know why im crying. Inside my room. All alone.

2012-01-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

So lazy to blog. :/
Going in Singapore tomorrow with Leonyie and she's staying over at my place :DD

So far so good. :)

Get your hands off of my boy.

iPad is more entertaining when it has been jail broken :D
My iPad looks beAutiful in her new clothes :))))

I have never liked feelings like this.

2012-01-24T20:39:00.002+08:00

This should never have crossed my mind. Ifs.

I know, I missed something awesome this time. But it is my choice. Yes, no doubt, I felt like the queen of the world during that time. But something was wrong. So sorry.

I love hanging with Ausmatians, I love speaking our rojak language. I love speaking English and Chinese at the same time. Except you guys, I don't want and won't talk to anyone else like this.

Did you hear my heart screaming?

2012-01-24T12:15:00.001+08:00

I am confused, I am lost. I don't know what is right and what is wrong. I've let my heart control my brain. My brain, it understands what you guys are trying to tell me. But my heart doesn't let your words make sense to my brain.

I miss you, lzt. I miss you so much.

Tam hui loon, you are my girl. <3

Happy second day of Chinese new year! Going out with my Ausmatians later, and that stupid vickey ffk again. I miss her, ah pui and geric so much :(

Chinese new year!

2012-01-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese new year peeps ! :)) well it's just as great spending cny at home as it is in Sarawak. But I seriously miss the fireworks there. Compared to what I've seen in bintulu, all these fireworks I saw today are like, so insignificant. Sometimes I wonder why those sarawakians are willing to spend so much money on fireworks? They don't even last. 'piak piak piak piak' and there goes your dollars. But okay la for people like me the more they spend on fireworks the more we untung xD !

Oh and, okay I'm not trying to be sarcastic or show that I have mastered the English language. In fact, my English is just, yknow, at a so-so standard. But it just irritates me when I see people typing in English, and grammar mistakes are everywhere. It's okay to make mistakes, and I do make mistakes sometimes as well. But it is just so irritating when you can't even find a correct grammar used in the conversations or statements the person has made. And the worst is, when they are trying to scold people using English and they make grammar mistakes everywhere. That is just so damn ridiculous. People, it is 'it sucks', not 'it is suck'. Omgosh.

'don't judge me until you know me, don't estimate me until you've challenged me, don't talk about me until you've talked to me.'
Although I am too awesome to not be talked about. Ha!

Till then, nightynight!

2012-01-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

I like you. I like your smile. Because your smile is just so influential, your smile makes me happy. Until I know those smiles are fake.
我喜欢你的笑

:'(

Fireworks are pretty but they make me deaf.

I like to blog, I blog when I am upset, I blog when I feel emo, I blog when I am extremely happy. I like my blog. My blog is like my loyal listener. When everyone is too busy to pay me attention, I come to my blog. When everyone is too busy to listen to my problem, I come to my blog, even though it won't come out with any solutions to my problem, but I doubt anyone else will, even if I tell them. I tell everything to my blog, it is my best friend. Too many emotions and secrets of mine here, so should I keep it all to myself? Should I make my blog private? Hmmmm..

Some friends, feel just as close as family.

2012-01-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

someone says, I am not worried about your results, you always do great and I don't have to worry about that.

<3 sweetest.

I was emo last night, maybe because somebody hit my weakness at the point. Someone feels my pain, which I have been trying to hide, to cover with something else, to forget. Time may heal your wounds, but healing doesn't mean everything is okay. There will be scar, that constantly reminds you what you have been through.

Hahahaha made my day

2012-01-20T15:23:00.004+08:00

Sorry I am not trying to haolian but I am too happy, straight A+ for last sem xD I am so proud of myself xD

I guess every shopaholic gets tired in the end huh? I feel so lazy to go shopping nowadays, even if my parents ask me out for shopping. I feel so lazy to get new clothes for myself, feel so lazy to even walk out from my comfort zone. But I guess I have enough clothes to wear until the next time my shopping hormone comes back. Guess I am going to Singapore this holiday, JB is so sien.. Everyone is either working or studying. Anyway, down with flu and sore throat, I NEED TO RECOVER BEFORE CNY COMES ! In a hard time now, period pain + sorethroat + flu. Awesome, no? :DD

lots and lots of food at home, sore throat please leave me alone ! :DD

Our sixth; 18.1.2012

2012-01-19T10:03:00.001+08:00

Thanks for making my day, and of course, thanks for choosing me instead of dota that night xD love you! I know you wanted to bring me somewhere else, but do you know something? It's the thought that counts, and all I ask for from you is just you, being by my side :)) iloveyou lawzhentheng , thanks for taking care of me last night when I felt uncomfortable :) thanks for showering me with your love everyday and for treating me like a boss xD <3

Happy anniversary ! Six months and going strongg :D

2012-01-17T14:10:00.006+08:00

Period hit today, as usual, my period time routine, pain in the stomach for the whole day. Thanks my dearest LZT for taking care of me for the whole day <3 I know it's not fun to stay with a sick person for the whole day, especially when she is sleeping the whole day, but thanks, because you still do it. :) thanks for hugging me so tight when the pain is killing me :))

but I am still grateful because it comes before CNY, which means i can eat as much as i want during CNY. xD

God, I want to thank you for bringing this amazing boy into my life. <3

Know the best thing about being with you? We can go talking for hours like best friends, we tickle each other until we fall down on the floor, we take care of each other like a parent, we can stay silent being by each other's side without feeling awkward, we gossip like nobody is listening, we talk about our ex without hiding anything, we tell each other our feelings without hesitating, be frank with each other and admit what we did wrong in the past, pinky promise each other that we won't do it again, and mean it, we choose clothes for each other, snatch each other's food, i can sleep on ur chest and drool on your clothes and you won't scold me, i can do the most embarrassing thing i could ever think of and you will still love me. You're my boyfriend, but I can do all the 'do-with-my-bestfriend-things' with you.♥ I love you :)

HAHAHA

2012-01-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

told you karma's a bitch if you are one. Now it's actually happening on you, and i know i shouldnt be saying this but I enjoy seeing you screw your life up. You are so totally messed up, and I am wondering how could a person be so messed up like you? Good luck ah. HAHAHA.

Seriously, I love Econs, just that I never realized. And I thought memorizing figures was boring. It IS fun when you get to apply what you learn in real life.

the only thing that never change is my love for you, but yknw something has changed. :/

But ily, still.

2012-01-09T11:43:00.001+08:00

everything is just illusion, even if they are lies, they are all illusions.

Now karma has it. :)

2012-01-07T14:53:00.001+08:00

Like seriously, what makes you think you have the face to even make up these words and tell to the whole world? Cause from what I see, youre doing the same or even worse. Now not only the words that you use, also the action you've shown, tell the truth. Doesn't matter, not that I care anyway. It's just so ridiculous to see a lamp claiming others cheap, haha. Nah don't you worry, now karma knows what to do on you, so enjoy!

we, against the world.

2012-01-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

Don't ever stop needing me, wanting me, kissing me, exactly the way you do.

easy to be forgotten.

2012-01-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to feel now. Because when the whole world abandons me, I thought you'd never forget about me. But it just turned out to be pretty wrong. Maybe it's just me, expecting too much from you. Anyway, it isn't even an option to even mention this to you. But it just hurts so much when you're my priority all the time but you don't seem to put me at your first. It's just me, I guess.

Sem 3 started. Good to be back, yet it makes me feel bad at the same time. I don't know why but I just feel like I don't belong anywhere. It sucks to feel left out all the time.

Anyway, Eleen Sim, just be strong :).

2012-01-01T22:52:00.001+08:00

Just so you know, you're making me feel like shit all the time.

Saw my friend's blog, changed so much for his girl. Maybe I should do the same so that people will start paying me attention like how I do to them now.

2012-01-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

I started keeping things to myself, then I slowly began to keep everything. I have secrets now, secrets that keep everyone at arm's length, behind a closed door, miles away.

Smart not hard.

2011-12-31T14:50:00.001+08:00

I wanted red hair like this, but I won't look nice in red hair because well I am not fair. This is my friend and I am sorry to use your picture here, so if you're managed to read this post, I just want to tell you that you're amazing and so sorry to use your picture here, and your hair is really nice. (:

I love being with these two girls cause I can act like a retard and they will still love me ! well, it's simply because they are kinda retarded too x)

My relatives and parents and also friends just praised me, Eleen you are really smart. Look at how they study, and look at how you study. You are like a big time slacker and I can almost see you online on FB the whole day yet you can score so well. Wahahahahahaha frankly I am flattered. I admit I really didn't study as hard as I did for the first sem and as my housemates, and I really didn't expect it would turn out to be an A+ for chemistry cause I almost screwed the whole paper up. I at least tembak for 10 objectives and left blank for a few sub questions. I thought it would be good enough to get a B for it. Somemore I don't study till late night anymore, I used these "burning-midnight-oil-time" to watch conan. Lol. I am truly grateful and thank God :D . My parents have been so generous to buy me all the stuffs I want. Ipad2, blackberry, apparels, shoes, bags, she even offered to buy me the Topshop bag I wanted but nahhh, don't want la, it's sold out anyway. Haven't been to JPO but oh well, since I can go to Pavillion anytime in KL so why bother to go JPO?

New year resolutions

1. Be happy

2. Less emomo

3. Be more mature

4. Ignore the bitches

5. Stay in love with him x) anw it's gonna be our sixth next month :D

6. Study smart and get into pharmacy

7. gotta improve my speaking skills, both chinese and english. My ability of writing and speaking Mandarin is deteriorating like my health. sigh.

8. exercise more ! stamina becoming like shit.

9. spend less (which is very unlikely to come true LOL)

10. Take care of my complextion and hair.

11. Less ulcers, drink more water.

12. Keep in touch with my lovely people.

Okay la macam greedy only. That's all byebye HAPPY NEW YEAR HAPPY 2012 PEOPLE ! :D

恒等于

2011-12-31T01:20:00.007+08:00

等于和恒等于并不一样
:(

I have no idea why all the emo feelings will come and haunt me all at once in the middle of the night.Idk why i am feeling like this. Most probably because of the fact that owning something makes you vulnerable. It fills your mind with the thought of losing the precious thing of yours which scares the shit out of you. You love it so much and are already used to the life with that something precious in it, and you just can't stop worrying about losing the something you feel comfortable with someday. I am just so afraid of losing you despite of the number of times you've told me this won't happen. Because I am just not good enough to make you stay.

Great I am beyond satisfied about my results. Never expected to score so well. IELTS band 7.5 ? Yeah maybe it's not amazing but it's good enough for me I am not making comparison anyway. I am me and I don't have to lower down my pride to compare myself with anyone else. Yeah this is it. Don't have to compare yourself with anyone else. Because they have never walk in your shoes for even just a day, they have never been through what you have. Every single human being is unique and there is no comparison that can be made between one and another. Be proud of who you are, people.

Lol girl with big words? NO. Only good at words but these words don't make a single sense when I apply them on my situations. Suck big time. I am feeling so damn freaking ceaselessly insecure. and I hate this feeling.

Counting down tomorrow. Tam will not be there with me. :( gonna be super awkward den.. hmm. Going back KL real soon, can't believe I am actually saying this but, thank God sem break is ending. I want to go back so badly.

HA you're such a narcissist. ew.

Anyway I found this in my laptop when I was about to transfer all my files to a hard disk. Friends for 6 years, same class for 4 years in sec school and now same course, and most probably same course for 5 years. We looked so kiddy that time. HA !

This is me during form 3, after PMR. Damn lala i know xD .

This is my most darlinggggg darling, Ong Li Yin. Bff for dunno how many years alrd and still love her just as much! (:

My seventeenth Birthday at Danga Bay :D

My very Chien Da addmaths teacher, never admit that I am smart although I am his student who always scores the highest. xD

Miss these girls of mine (: so much.

Wei Xiang ! (:

My lovely TVA ! :DD

During TVA's birthday i think. :D

A lil flashback of the past few years. Hee. 2012 is coming !

2012, I am gonna experience with HIM. :)

Loved.

2011-12-29T23:01:00.001+08:00

and we don't know how we got into this mad situation, only doing things out of frustration. Try to make it work but man these times are hard. We're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine, sit talking up all night, doing things we haven't for awhile, awhile. We're smiling but we're close to tears, even after all these years but just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

I want to sing this song, I am so in love with it :)
The Script is always the most awesome.

lady and girl.

2011-12-28T02:26:00.004+08:00

It's time to be a lady, not a girl anymore.

Girl means you need protection; you need to be pampered; you need security; you need someone to be there for you, cheering you up, making you laugh, catching your tears when you cry; it means you life revolves around that one person.

Lady means you do not depend on anyone and you can live your life beautifully without being influenced by the environment or the people around you. It means you are a grown up and you know what you actually live for- not pleasing other people but yourself.

Sometimes they just don't understand, GIRLS act like GIRLS only when they are in front of the people they truly love, because being a girl means you get hurt easily, it means your guard is all down to show that one special person who you really are, it means she trusts you that you won't hurt her. That is why a girl is acting urm, like a girl in front of you.

When a girl acts like a lady in front of you, and you find her so attractive, so understanding, so obedient. She finally becomes one of those no-troubles-makers. But this is the time you need to worry. Her guard is up and you won't get to hurt her, ever again. You don't get to see her true self, ever again. :)

But macam being a lady is better. xD

I love my home although staying at home rotting the whole day is not something very fun to do. But it's the feeling of comfort I get. :)

Spent days doing that fugly stuff why my hands you no make it pretty ?!?! :(

anyway, I miss Janice Teng so much it has been a year since we last saw each other, which is during SPM account paper I think. Was gonna visit her this sem break but due to the break down of MRT last week or so, my mum refuses to let me go everytime I ask. Plan spoiled fml. :(

Why am I starting to feel like this? Well this is so wrong.

Got my CNY dress haha from cotton on ! but HAVE TO leave it here cause if i bring it to KL for sure I will wear it before cny comes. LOL.

Okay I have abandoned my laptop for so long but too bad my iPad2 is more attractive than you, SOZ HA !

Had my Christmas dinner with my parents at some Japanese Restaurant. My favourite NOMNOMNOM. the food was good but the Ikura was too salty blehhhh.

Hee our food. Look at the big fat juicy scallops OMFG.

Don't really like this. Too salty yucks.

My FAV SARAWAK LAKSA ! OMGG YUMMINESS <3

can never resist to this :D

I have a pair of very sleepy eyes HAHAHA.

JB is a no fun place when you've stayed in KL or other town for too long. No entertainment and friends are all busy. So what if I have car now? My BFF is working. :'(

So much drama, you not tired ah ??

Gonna strike 3 now i gotta go sleep someone I forgot who told me my dark circles are becoming more and more obvious. Nightnighty !

2011-12-26T02:19:00.001+08:00

it's no surprise anyway. No one has ever stuck with me for so long. bet it has been a tough time for you. expected it to come anyway. told you guys I am never good enough.

Oh, Happy Christmas although it's late. HEE.

2011-12-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

分不清是因为月经肚子太酸还是想哭还要硬忍到脸颊酸还是我的脸发现这个笑容太假给我的message

Pretending is the best costume.

2011-12-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

It makes you look like you're okay, makes you look decent, makes you look understanding, makes you look caring, makes you less awkward, makes you seem cheerful, makes you charming, makes you look just fine, makes things seem less complicated, makes world seem to be a beautiful place, creates less conflicts, creates less confusions.

& most importantly..
It makes people happy. Almost everyone but yourself. So is it worth it? Depends on you.

Gonna make it private. More room for myself, more privacy, less conflicts, less drama to put on.

Reason why you should treat your lady right.

2011-12-22T20:42:00.001+08:00

Because every month she has to go through an extremely unbearable pain known as period pain.

Damn irritating. It's killing me I can't even sit down quietly I think I am going to die.

Thinking of dying my hair again the color faded away already.

What a day.

Again and again I am becoming so insignificant. Like repeating the story line only. Should have expected it earlier.

I think I can get used to this. Haha one day I will I guess. Jiayou la.

2011-12-21T01:01:00.001+08:00

starts tomorrow.

stop relying on someone so much. stop caring so much.

Ong Li Yin, I need a very very big very very tight hug from you.

All I want for Christmas is You.

2011-12-20T21:40:00.001+08:00

Well, JB is fine, but it is raining almost everyday. And it simply chases the idea of going to town away every time it rains. Because it might flood, and I don't want to stuck in the jam for hours without doing anything productive in my tiny cutie kenari. OH WAIT. I am driving my grand livina out.

Anyway, mummy is going to make tang yuan for me soon! I love eating tang yuan because it brings back my childhood memories. My so-called '2nd mother', my baby sitter used to make me tang yuan every year. Aww I miss her already, shall go visit her tomorrow with my mum :DD

Wanted to go Singapore but the break down of MRT is totally freaking me out. Maybe I shall wait until it gets fixed completely. Don't want to get stuck in the MRT for hours :/

Haven't been doing anything satisfying since I came back. Tam Hui Loon is busy working but she is the one I want to see the most among all the friends. :'( stupid Tam !

LAW ZHEN THENG I MISS YOU. I can't wait to see you again. :D

BYE.

2011-12-19T10:41:00.001+08:00

that is all for this nonsense.

BYE.

w/o you.

2011-12-18T11:10:00.001+08:00

I know I've been so love sick but well, I really miss him.

It's just the first day back to JB and I am already missing him like crazy.

This is madness. For homecoming becomes a torture.

Okay maybe this adjective is too extreme for my situation.

Although being able to see my family is such a bliss.

BUT.I.JUST.CANT.STOP.THINKING.ABOUT.HIM.

sorry such a helpless romantic I am? But at least I am honest to my blog.

Blog is the only place to pour out all my feelings, and I think I have every right to write how I feel inside here.

So I am not going to lie or say stuffs to please anyone but myself.

Hahahaha ego much? I am so sorry. :P

Law Zhen Theng I just miss you so freaking much. :')

See you again next year. :'(

thanks for being my sunshine, and for always being by my side throughout the hard times.

I can say I am truly happy through these days.

You make me wanna thank God that I live my life everyday,

There's never been a doubt in my mind, that I ever regret having you by my side.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

it's 18th today. :)

the FIFTH.

star dust.

2011-12-16T00:31:00.001+08:00

Random title I know. But i am looking at the sky now wondering if I will ever have the chance to see the whole universe like those captured by satellites, just the dark sky with numerous stars in different colours. That would be nice. But okay, keep on dreaming, lol.

today is Choo's birthday and we celebrated in Secret Recipe like how we celebrated the other's birthdays. This is sad. Too bad none of us has a car. I will try to persuade my parents to let me bring my car here. I wonder why all the tiny girls can have their own cars here but not me? I am so tall, and I play sports as well okay! Which means I will be strong enough to defend myself when I somehow accidentally bump into bad situations like.. meeting a perv? HAHAHA. Okay back to my story, my lovely housemates and I bought a Nike bottle for him. Actually it's my choice cause I was asked to choose the present for him as I will be staying in KL. I think it's pretty nice but I heard from one of them that it's too small for him as he drinks a lot of water each day. But at least he can use it when he is going out i guess?

Have been a shopaholic for the whole week. Spent more than 600 i guess. went Sunway Lagoon, went out shopping almost everyday, eat good food everytime I go out w/o any feeling of guilt. OHMY, someone has to save me from being such a spender extraordinaire. The worst is, when I just started to tell myself to stop spending so much, my mum would say something like "I will bank in $$$ to your account tomorrow" or "use all the money in your account" or "buy the stuffs you like okay?". Induced my body to secrete more shopping hormone, HAHAHA.

too much of the camwhore? HA.

Merry Christmas in advance people!

My dearest and I in KLCC :)

Sunway Lagoon fun with LZT :D

Ielts speaking tomorrow, wish me luck earthlinggs !

till then, bye ! :)

Nil

2011-12-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

他说她不是我你管她讲什么我只知道我真的喜欢你就可以了

他说你是我的人我不会给别人欺负你的我不会让你受委屈的

Sweetest guy in the whole wide world.

You don't even know how well he treats me and how much love he has shown to me.

Thanks for showering me with so much love every single day.

Thanks for hugging me so tight to tell me you love me like you never did to anyone.

Thanks for telling me I'm the best you've ever had.

Thanks for your honesty and care.

Thanks for pampering me like a princess despite of my bad temper and pettiness.

刘镇廷 I love you :D

you say one ah, 18-7 xD

Such a kid.

2011-12-12T09:31:00.000+08:00

I can't stop laughing when he showed me those statuses.
Cause you brought up so much drama to entertain us.
If you don't care, why do you even bother about both of us?
So I know perfectly what is really going on in your mind- jealousy.
So you judging me? It's okay if you think you know better than me.
In fact, he told me everything that happened between both of you.
So many of them I haven't done that, you're so pro. :) salute max.
Got so worked up easily only means you're immature.
Let me tell you, you're the one that makes him hate you so much.
Why do you have to do things that lower down your status in people's eye?
Those words only make people see what kind of girl you are.
And girls who say vulgar are not decent at all.
We don't even stalk you, so stop stalking both of us.
You have your boy and I have mine, so cut it out.
Leave our life, thanks. :)

hiatus

2011-11-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

Such a big hiatus.

It's end of sem 2, and my finals are approaching.
It's just next week. I should be studying instead of blogging.

xx
till then, see you guys after finals !

Actually, JPA is not a really good thing after all.
I will NOT let my kids to take JPA, it's a mental abuse to all humans.

:DD

You watched me cry.

2011-11-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

& accept me for who I really am, inside out.

2011-11-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

To you, someone I knew, someone who was once very important to me, and now we are not even talking to each other anymore, and we will never know what is going on with each other, anymore.

Thanks for everything, I hate not talking to you, but I know this is for the best. I wish you all the best, you will be very very happy, you will be good. :) but please, if you see this, I hope you will just leave me a message or something before you leave Malaysia.

There is this one song playing in my head and it reminds me of you.

Her.

2011-11-15T14:27:00.000+08:00

I thought it was easy to find true friends here, HECK NO.
It doesnt even take anything for people to forget about your existence.
They don't even bother to know about what's going on with you.
Should have known, girl. You will never find someone like her anymore.
I'd rather be alone than being with people that do not care about you.
Congrats, and no worries. You still have her.
<3

2011-11-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

Of course lah, cause he is mine now. :)

2011-11-12T16:35:00.001+08:00

九把刀那些年，我们一起追的女孩

The novel he wrote, which he made into a movie.

This is a 10/10 movie, it is a MUST WATCH ! :D

I was about to cry while watching the movie.

The best movie I have ever watched, you guys should really watch it if you are free.
Worth more than the price of the movie ticket ! :D

11.11.11 ! :)

11.11.11

2011-11-10T21:56:00.001+08:00

nice date. Special dates have never felt special to me, neither has this. But well, since I am going to watch the movie I've been longing for since the beginning of the year, and since this will be our first movie together, I will take note on this pretty date :DD

going to watch 'you're the apple of my eye' tomorrow with him. Have been waiting for this movie to finally be shown in cinemas since the very beginning of this year. Read this book for n times, but the movie seems to be way nicerrrrr. The girl has the same surname as me ! :D Will be in Sunway Pyramid tomorrow for this movie, long travelling time eh? I know. But shopped in Mid Valley for so many times until I got sien of it already, and the lovely ma fan boy doesn't want to go cheap shopping complexes like ~~TIMES SQUARE~~. Thought of going sungei wang, but oh wells. Next time maybe . (: do not want to spend anymore money on apparels and accessories until exams are over. Spent way too much this month, I am a SHOPAHOLIC x( save me someone ! >< I've spent more than 500 in one week time.Stress is no good, makes me broke. You know why? cause whenever I feel stress, especially for such a long period... okay this is nothing compared to SPM, but I am so over the SPM nightmare, I am a university student and I am not gonna mug like SPM students anymore. Back to the topic, whenever I feel stress for more than a week, my body will secrete some sort of shopping hormones which make me feel like spending money ~~SO EFFING DESPERATELY~~. That explains why I spent so much after all our midterms are over. First time in my life. Good experience. Shall upload those pretty pictures of my PRECIOUS PRETTY APPARELS in my blog soon. :D Sorry lah I know this isn't an excuse for me to spend my money like there's no tomorrow, but I really can't control. WHAT THE HECK.

Let's see what I've bought in these two weeks.

Pretty dark green flats from padini.

2 same tops from cotton on, but different colours.

again, 2 same tops from Kitschen.

Lots and lots and lots of food. HA !

Dress from padini, which is on sales and it's freaking cheap ! xD

Bikini.

LZT says I fa hiao cause I always wear dress and skirts, HAHAHA !

okay tomorrow will be the last day of FUN and gonna mug for finals already.

BYE PEEEEEEEPS XD

my lovely. :)

2011-11-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everything, Law Zhen Theng.

Words can't describe how grateful I am to be able to meet you here.

You're the reason I am smiling happily everyday.

Thanks for being the one.

Thanks for tolerating my hot temper and all.

Thanks for telling me you love me when I need it the most.

Thanks for giving me a hug when I am about to break down every time.

Thanks for telling me you will always love me even when I am flawed.

I will always love you, like how I always say to you, even at the worst of time.

you will always be my baby <3

2011-10-21T12:59:00.000+08:00

Please borrow me your shoulder, I need a place for me to break down, but please do not ask me what happened.
Please tell me a white lie that I am great, although I am not.
Please tell me I am good at something, even if you don't know what that thing is, please make me feel that I'm worth living.

2011-10-21T12:47:00.002+08:00

And like seriously, I need something to make me feel that I am not so worthless. I don't want to feel stupid.

How to not feel stupid when I'm surrounded by a gang of geniuses that study almost everyday ????

UUURRRRGGGHHHHHHHHH AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!

Effort put in 100%, results shown 0%

2011-10-21T12:44:00.000+08:00

So admit it, I am good at nothing beside memorizing stuffs. Other than that, I have no idea how to handle them. I hate it when you put in so much effort but it doesn't make any difference. I hate competing with people but ever since I came here everything around me keeps on forcing me to become so kiasu. I just want to be simple and stress-less but the effing situations here make it almost impossible to keep myself in my own pace. So irritating. I hate life like this- stressful, dull, unentertaining, and all these shits make me feel like the purpose of our lives is just about studying and scoring well in exams. So freaking lifeless. I hate the feeling when you got your results and all you wanna do is cry. Fml. This used to be more than enough for me but idk what the hell happened to me, I am the kind of people I used to hate the mos- kiasu. I hate studying everyday like a nerd. I don't want to be a nerd. Give me back my teenage life.

Papa mama tam hui loon ong li yin, need you all so much now :'(

mistake made, lesson learnt.

2011-10-12T14:52:00.000+08:00

"Don't rush in."

You're so abso-fucking-lutely right.

I have no idea what the hell I have been doing lately and they don't make a single sense to me, at all. This is just so wrong when the one you thought was right did everything wrong anyone can ever do to upset you. This is just so wrong when someone tore you apart once and you forgave them for you know people make mistakes, but the same thing just keeps on happening. This is just so wrong when you trust people and they make fun of the trust, without knowing how much it hurts to have your trust betrayed by the one you thought would never do so. Just so damn dumb to believe that this particular person was different from all the jerks out there, to trust you when the truth itself has confronted me nakedly yet I chose to believe you for one more time. You never have really loved me, I didn't persuade myself to believe this, you did. KTHXBAI.

I am very zai.

2011-10-10T13:24:00.003+08:00

Twitter, facebook, restaurant story, ipad, study, bath, eat, study, do lab report, study, play ipad, study, play ipad.

my daily routine.
Zai anot?

:DDD

fml lalalalalalala.

2011-10-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

I wan a laptop like this :DDD

2011-10-06T23:35:00.002+08:00

treat others like how you want to be treated.

I have done everything I can for you, I put aside my pride and all that.

I've tried to do everything you request to cheer you up, sometimes I may let you down, but I've done everything that is possible for me to do.

But if you don't appreciate, take me for granted, take everything I've done for you as 'things I should do'..

Then I am sorry. It is not my problem anymore.

I wasn't born to be nice to anyone. I do not have the responsibility to pamper you like a shao ye or something.

I wasn't born with the superpower to read people's mind, so if you don't say, please do not expect me to know.

I know I may have put you in disappointments at times, but I hope you know you disappoint me at times as well.

Just that I didnt say, doesn't mean it did not happen.

It's because I understand, I know you can't read my mind, and it's my own problem to set expectations in you.

and I know nobody has the responsibility to be nice to me.

The fact is I know almost everything, including those that you did behind my back, those that I am not supposed to know.

That you were unfaithful. That is most probably one of the things that no girl can accept.

And I did. I did because I care, and maybe because I am dumb.

so fml cause I am being so damn fucking nice but no one reciprocates.

Screw you very much.

Fuck you very much.

2011-10-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

Just FYI, im blogging using my iPad hahahahahaaha haolian much I'm sorry :PP just wanna update you guys with my recent life. Well nothing much actually except that I missed the rat dissection because I fell sick, oh wells. At least I got to stay at home slack all day although I felt terrible. Vomited out almost everything that entered my stomach. Still not much appetite now :/

Just found out someone has been telling lies to the whole world about things she never know, or maybe she does but she's afraid to admit it cause I have something that she can't have? FYI, if you dont know the whole story and go around spreading stories about US, especially stories like that which can severely affect our reputations, you can be charged under verbal harassment to the court. And we are definitely what deep in you thinks we are, or even more and better than that. Anyway, it takes a bitch to know a bitch a bitch. So i hope you get me, miss. :) the fact is that it happened so long ago and you still can't accept the fact until now, awwwww. You can't imagine how happy we are with ourselves now so your comments aren't needed, thanks.

Tam hui loon it's been so long since we last talked :/

2011-09-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

When you're younger crying seemed to be the only answer.
and when you get older, crying seems to be the only option.
#sadlife.

Dinner :D

2011-09-25T23:47:00.000+08:00

Chef of the night :D !

can't wait for tomorrow night :DDDD

2011-09-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

It will be the sweetest thing that could ever happen. :)

Despite of all that I've heard.

2011-09-19T18:08:00.000+08:00

Fair enough.

2011-09-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalala....

why am i not in JB. I need a car and I need to get out of here, now. Sorry for spamming you my dear blog, I have no one else to turn to except you. It's too bad you don't have hands to hug me. I need tutti frutti. I need to sleep. I need to stop feeling like this. I need to stop needing. Grow up Eleen Sim, be tough and be brave. Be brave to be alone, be brave enough to be left alone. Cause nothing's ever built to last.

Eleensimihateyouyouaresosuperepiclydumb.

and that very moment when my heart started to bleed, I knew I could never be the same.

2011-09-14T00:57:00.003+08:00

and I lied. I don't even know what time my heart allows me to go to bed. Just so much to handle. I have only one brain, and millions of pain receptors. I don't know how long more I can take this. I wish I could just sleep and never had to wake up.

The lesser you care, the happier you will be.

2011-09-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tam Hui Loon, I love you more than words can say.

Happy sweet eighteen.

I wish I could be there with you.

Promise you I will go back soon, with loads of presents for you.

I really really love you, you mean the world to me.

last chance last straw.

2011-09-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

Just because I love you doesn't mean you can take me for granted.

There is a difference between sarcasm and bitching.

2011-09-09T15:25:00.004+08:00

First, sarcasm is for people of higher social class level, but when it comes to bitching, it's just the opposite. That simply proves that you have no class. No, nobody put themselves in whatsoever class. Things you do and say sort you in the particular social class level that completely tells who you are.
To be sarcastic, you need intelligence. You require a certain level of intelligence so that you sound sarcastic. Cause when you're trying to be sarcastic, you're actually scolding people with decent words. Bitching requires NO INTELLIGENCE. You just scold and scold and scold with all the unsightly words and that's the source of drama where pandai people just sit and watch all the drama you brought up. What you did and said only defines you, not other people.

so you know which class you belong to.

2011-09-08T15:46:00.001+08:00

I keep fighting for us, because I want you, the first time I saw you, I just knew. No matter how many times, we yell at each other, deep down we both know, we’ll never find another. Even if obstacles separate us, we somehow always return, love will always guide us, we just live and learn. I want you to know, when the day comes to an end, I just can’t picture life without you.

Don't look at a glass half empty, look at it half full.

2011-09-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

stop dwelling in things that make you upset.
just stop.

so right now this matter is just too complicated for me to handle.

2011-09-05T12:33:00.001+08:00

I don't know.

2011-09-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

so full of lies. I don't know where I should stand anymore. I don't know how to trust anyone anymore. I am so sorry I jumped into conclusion before ever asking you about it. But just by the way how it looks, and with every word that the photoreceptors in my retina has detected, little bit of me dies everytime I think of it. for a second I wish I could forget about it and pretend everything is alright. but I am so sorry I can't. it hurts more than you'd ever realize. maybe I should play it like a game like how everyone else does.

It simply means I do not want to try anymore.

2011-08-31T23:56:00.001+08:00

I believe with all my heart, my soul and brain. Okay sounds stupid but true. I believe God has made something for you.

2011-08-31T11:22:00.003+08:00

I know maybe I've really changed, to the better or to the worse, I don't know, and I don't want to know. But everything's that happens around me forces me to. I am so sorry. Don't tell me stuffs like I've changed. Tell me you will still love me and accept me for who I am even though I've changed. Because you mean so much to me, and I need you to know I have freaking bad temper. I said things that hurt, because this is just how terrible I am, this is how I am made to be. But when I apologize, I truly mean it, and I am hoping for you to say that everything is fine and you will be the same, because I will, I will love you still as I did yesterday. Don't tell me I've changed, because I care for you just the same way I did the first day you became the very important part of my life, the first day I regard you as my best friend. Don't tell me I am not the Eleen Sim you used to know. The only thing you will be doing is putting me in a maze where I have to find my true self back, and it'll most probably end up with me losing myself in the middle of no where. Where I can't find my old true self back, and do not have one bloody idea who I am and who I am supposed to be. Like, now? Sorry I can't tell you who I am now, can you? Should I be who I am , or should I be who I am supposed to be? Maybe you don't even know me. If you don't know me, I don't know who else does. seriously.

Dear Father Lord, if You hear me, can You please kindly tell me who I am?

2011-08-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

~~Now that I've found you, I can't let you go.~~

~~I built my world around you, I need you so.~~

~~Even though you don't need me.~~

Down with fever for two days, thought I'd die. LOL no kidding, 39+ before i slept after taking the med, and woke up with everything's the same? Thank God I am so much better now.

"If you leave me without reason, don't come back with excuses."

Saw this from someone's blog and find it so true.

I want tutti frutti. Blehhhhh.

I have so many wants and I am just gonna make a wish list here.

MY WISH LIST

1. A blackberry playbook/ipad/HTC flyer.

2. New skinny jeans.

3. Rayban shades.

4. Long straight smooth hair.

5. Nice smooth flawless complexion.

6. Get rid of my skin allergy.

7. I don't want to lose anyone in my life.

8. Tutti Frutti.

Yeah at times it's like that.

HAHAHHA so greeeedy :P

holiday life.

2011-08-27T23:04:00.001+08:00

so many posts related to my very messy feelings lately and I believe noone likes wordy posts so today I am gonna post some pretty pictures I took during my sem break in JB ! :D

Just one day before we all went back to our hometowns which is also the day we finished our exams, we celebrated carmen's late birthday and shiang yi's early birthday ! the birthday boy and girl . :) I personally think they look compatible xD .

The birthday cake before being 'destroyed' by all of us.

and here is something that reminds me of my ausmat's tradition. Eating cakes with just forks and spoons. Looking terrible huh ? xD

Finished ! with Carmen, Dylan and Terance around we don't have to worry about not finishing the cake ! :D

Wei Xiang, my Xiang Gong and she's the first to see my new hair ! xD and she is also the first person I met up with after I came back to JB :)

witness our sampat-ness ! miss her damn much lahhh wei. :D :D :D

and of course I met up with my beautiful ausmatianss. heading to Taman Daya for breakfast ! in James' car. James(without face), Vickey beside him and Me, Tam and Noob Ben at the back . :)

and I went back to Sarawak on the 19th to celebrate my ah gong's 88th birthday ! It's me at the beach :)

Had so much fun disturbing the hermit crabs there with my dad and Su Shan xD !

My brother and his lovely girlfriend :D

HAH YOU CANT FIND IT HERE IN JB IT'S CALLED BILING CAI AND IT'S SUPER YUMMY ! :D *showing off*

My dad playing paper toss. He broke my record at his first try, 56 :/ ! Pro lohhhhh

I used to hate cats but these two are really adorable. They like to lick my toes every time they see me , super yang orh loh !

The antique camera gor found in my ah gong's house. Cool right ?

Me, Tam and Erica with mango snowflakes ! :D in Manni's car.

Tam's childish Hello Kitty watch from Mcd Happy Meal hahahahaha.

and my dear, Lee Shiang Chyi came all the way from Batu Pahat to JB just to visit us ! all of us in Neway :D

Tou hua with milk and pearl. OMG taste like heaven hahahaha !

Beard Papa's creampuff ! LZT this is it :)

Kuey tiaw kia as breakfast ! I had pig's tongue :P

I love my fringe hahahahah it can cover mii face xD

and we had cheesecake at Cheelicious ! They are like 976543234567891876543456 times nicers than Secret Recipe's ones. NOM NOM NOMMM.

Laugh what???

Super huge mountain of ice and fruits. No wonder they took so long before it's served. xD

and we had Japanese buffet at night ! the food there made us feel like we're in heaven or what. Seriously, 65 bucks per person is NOT EXPENSIVE AT ALL if the food taste like THIS.

The sashimi, we ordered 4 of this.

The abolone, and we are so damn greedy we ordered 6 of this.

See his expression you will know how great the food are.

My life is great. HAHAHAHHAHA.

too many emo posts lately? I am so sorry. :/

2011-08-27T00:42:00.001+08:00

Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

2011-08-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

I can't go on like this. I am so sorry. But you just can't see through my eyes. I may seem caring, understanding at times. But there are also times that I need to break down and be who I want to be, knowing that someone will accept me at my worst. But obviously nope. A big no. People only love you for how nice you are how amazing you are, but totally not for how imperfect you are. I am so sorry to the whole world. I can't keep pretending. I am human also, I get tired too. My smile tells me it needs a break too, my tears tell me they need to get wild for a little while too. I am just tired of being the OPTIMISTIC GIRL you think I am. I can be, but I am not. Is this statement logical? Since you don't even care, that's it. You asked me to do it, remember this.

2011-08-26T01:36:00.001+08:00

I am sorry I can't even be honest to myself.
I hate to say that but I know it's true.

Seriously, are you that desperate?

2011-08-25T00:41:00.003+08:00

~~Okay you can go bitching around all day long for all I care. :) I will be glad to watch you screw your life up. You're sucha mess.~~

I am sorry for being rude here but this is the only place I get to vent all my anger here.

and please, stop comparing between you and him. It's just not what you think. When you were having troubles, I was there. I was there for God's sake. I just got so tired when you told me you're having troubles but do not want to talk about it or refuse to say. Then what you tell me for? Do you want me to go begging you on my knees? WTS want then say, dont want then dont say. & Stop comparing between you and him. JUST STOP. I just get so irritated every time you do that. Sorry I need to be rude today because I freaking hate repeating the same shit everyday but still get blamed at the end of the day. Stop saying things like 5 years cannot compare to 3 months. So now you think I am some kind of idiots who will never realize what you are actually talking about when I see that ? Stop being so bloody sensitive because not everyone can stand that. Stop being so super clingy because not everyone is used to that. You're not the only one who gets moody everyday, almost everyone you know does that everyday every minute. Stop expecting.

2011-08-24T12:54:00.003+08:00

the story of my life HAHAHAHAHHA LOL

stop being so immature. I am not going to even waste my precious time on this nonsense so yeah quit it would you? stop acting like you can explain everything that's going on around us and stop bloody jumping into conclusion without knowing what REALLY is going on between us. I don't freaking need a 17 years old girl to tell me what to do and what is going to happen, you don't even know a single thing so cut it out. I didn't want to get involved in this shit but too bad you've crossed the line and got onto my nerves, so just leave us alone already ! And I'm pretty much sure I see this situation and the consequences that are coming after it clearer than you do, and TYVM for remaining silence from now onwards.

annoying chey.

2011-08-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAH damn hilarious.

This is so damn freaking true.

NGIAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

I miss you more than anything

2011-08-23T13:36:00.001+08:00

I am just so in love with this song.

What time is it where you are?

I miss you more than anything

Back at home you feel so far

Waitin for the phone to ring

It's gettin lonely livin upside down

I don't even wanna be in this town

Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning

When it's midnight

Going out of my head

Alone in this bed

I wake up to your sunset

It's drivin me mad

I miss you so bad

And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

I miss you so bad

I wanna share your horizon

And see the same sunrising

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me

2011-08-20T16:45:00.001+08:00

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RM25/month
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OMG tell me I'm dreaming, this is like super affordable man :D !
it's only RM0.80 + per day youknow, with full internet access everywhere?
okay I am gonna go subscribe this plan so I can access to internet everyday everywhere hahaha.
Gonna be the biggest distraction ever D: but well who cares :P

One week and one day, which means eight days.
Gahhhh I miss you so.

I have dinner later and today is my gong gong's birthday ! :)
and also SYCJB's annual ball.
I can't go cause of my gong gong's birthday :'( !
Okay they will just have to have fun without me which is not very hard also, chey.
Sarawak's weather is really killing, hot like (*&^%$#@#$% in the afternoon and I get migraine if I don't stay in air-conditioned room :/
going back tomorrowww !

:)

sbbmymymy :P

2011-08-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Cause I am so damn tired of being pushed around.

I understand, I really do. But who is there to understand how I feel?

I seriously do miss you. I miss how you make everything feels alright just by being by my side. I miss how you smile at me and show me your braces. I miss when everything is just in place. I miss you.

2011-08-15T01:42:00.000+08:00

new hair colour, I am a lala kthxbye.

2011-08-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

她比我适合

i'm a fcking disaster. FML.

2011-08-12T01:48:00.000+08:00

Get me outta here.

2011-08-10T13:47:00.001+08:00

the more you get, the more fragile you become, the easier it is to hurt you.

I am so sorry.

2011-08-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

So true.

2011-08-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

Seriously I love this girl more than I ever did to anyone lah.

Dunno what makes you so special. Sampat ! :D

have been studying since morning and my brain is yelling at me now. nahhh it needs a break NGEHEHEHEHE. *tonnes loads of excuses* xD

i want to buy external speakers for my lappie eh, kesian him lor i keep the music playing since morning until now. okay reaching 12 hours very soon, its own lousy speakers gonna burst so soon luh cause it's on full blast all the time HAHAHAHHA.

OH FYI, my lappie is a guy because it's black, cool and hsome ! and my blackberry is a girl because she's so fair, and she has nice figure xD !

okay bullshitting as usual, so forgive me ! i am just too bored HAHAHA !

okay well, people change and so do you. you were once my bestfriend who i told everything to, who could always make me burst out laughing when i was about to cry, who made me stay up till 4 just to share secrets with, who i told my dreams to, who i turned to whenever i needed someone.

i really wish you were still here to talk to me, but i guess it will never happen again. you're one of the truest friends i've ever had. thankyou for being part of my life. ):

girl, be brave and go for what you love. you guys love each other, talk things out and everything will be fine. Be brave, my girl.

stop thinking that you could be someone's world so easily. stop boasting about yourself being clever, attractive and stuffs. stop thinking everyone would fall for you and stop behaving like a bitch okay. i don't wanna fight so just shut your bloody mouth up alright. TYVM .

okay so i see, you thought i was talking about you ? HAHAHAHAHA.

do you even have any brain cells that can actually work properly?

i am damn mean. HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, I don't think there's anyone who is a relax as me now lor, finals starting on monday and im still blogging here. God bless me *Amen*. Hahaha who cares, I ain't the study type, do my best and God will do the rest, WEEEEEHEEEE ! :D

okay lah, that's all for now. BYE PEOPLE ! :D

2011-08-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

算了咯如果你真的要这样对我我把你当成我最好的朋友看到你emo我会不高兴现在就这样咯原来你所谓的bff是这样咯我了解明白算了咯就当讲过的话都是废话反正我做这么多事也从来没有人珍惜原来一直以来都是我自己以为以为你是我好朋友以为你真的会anytime be there for me 以为你会一直把我当成你的好朋友以为我真的有一点点那么重要以为你会对我像我对你一样真心算了咯我perasan sorry

FREAK. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING. WHY THE HECK I AM DOING THIS. FREAK.

2011-07-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

B for you. (:

2011-07-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

Love how this thing goes.

Although it might just as well end one day.

But well, I am truly happy.

There is this annoying character in my class, well how should i put this.....

okay i have to admit that he is freaking smart, but well.

HE HAS A VERY SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEM.

"ehhhhh i can't understand what the lecturer's talking about just now lehh."

"Good lor like that."

"huh????"

"I mean, very good. because i understand. since all of you dont, i am the only one who understand. so i am happy."

..............

I went completely speechless when I overheard the conversation.

walao you tell me lah, where got people like this one ???

okay suan, now he thinks that he is the genius in the class, let him be.

I am freaking showing him that he is not.

He thinks he is the Mr charming in this class?

the guys will show him he's freaking NOT.

walaaaaooo i think we need to get him a psychologist.

okay done complaining.

Finals are coming in one or two weeks time.

cant be bothered. :/

real bad, i am gonna start mugging now.

BYEBYEEEE !

there is nowhere like H.O.M.E.

2011-07-18T21:27:00.001+08:00

haiya, you know lah Eleen Sim is feeling homesick again.

forever man : / !

hahhahahhhahahaa

This is how long my fringe is right now.

HAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAH.

okay damn pointless but i just feel like writing something.

why am i so damn insecure? :/

BYE READERS !

freaking roller coaster.

2011-07-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

one second you're high up in the sky,
and the next second it brings you to the lowest point you could ever reach.
so this is how it's like huh ?
Eleen Sim, you're a super dummy, stop making yourself fragile.

Be the pandora box.

2011-07-16T16:48:00.001+08:00

Flood the world with something they have never seen.

Damn depressed face eh?

We all have that special someone, that doesn't belong to you, yet deep down you know you need them in your life.

I just need to chill at home and slack all day, for today and tomorrow.

Brain damage=100% after 3 midterm papers.

K.O. by three papers.

Died three times a week , on separate day somemore.

mana boleh tahan wor? :/

Okay so just be prepared when you see me crying like siao when we got back our papers or even just the marks.

Happy birthday to SAM KONG aka my dearest gorgor.

waaaa damn long never call him like that alrd. :/

I wonder if he will see this post but yeah, I called him once I finished exams and got home ! (:

although he sound so tired >< ! shall call him tonight again xD.

he is a super amazing awesome friend who never fail to be there for me when I need someone to talk to for these four/five years.

Thanks SAM KONG.

Enjoy your birthday ! !7 alreadyyyyy :D

Have a blast and CHIONGG FOR SPM !! :D

I FEEL FREAKING HOMESICK.

GRRRRR.

有些东西失去了你才觉得原来不是什么事都是理所当然的
有福气一起吃饭聊天讲废话八卦斗嘴玩monopoly 甚至吵架原来是那么幸福的
我现在多么希望我可以在同一间课室跟你们一起上课
一起打瞌睡一起偷吃东西一起弄老师生气
我多么希望我可以和你们一起在休息的时候一起在烦不知道要吃什么
一起complain食物很慢偷吃你们的食物
一起吵老师要break 5 在食堂买零食吃
被像小孩子的vickey骂又臭又丑又肥又恶心
我想念你们
原来可以认识你们是一种福气

♥

Okay chillax girl i shall sleep now ! Good night ! :D

2011-07-15T15:02:00.001+08:00

4 hours IELTS class every saturday from september until mid december.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH FML.
which means I will have no time to go back to JB if I have class on monday morning.
okay seriously, this is ridiculous.
IDIOTS.

you know where to find me, you know what to do.

2011-07-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Who says pretending to be happy when you feel down is a bad thing to do?

Sometimes for a second, you forget that you're actually sad.

I should smile, like, from the bottom of my heart.

But why do I find it so hard?

Still, I miss ausmat so much.

sometimes people build you up.. just to knock you down.

2011-07-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

Quotes that tell my feelings today.

So true.

how amazing people's hearts work.

because everyone is the same?

If you can do this, I salute you.

2011-07-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAH this is so damn cute I lol-ed as I read it. XD

So yeah don't make me leave footprints on your face cause if I really get to step on your face, I will step real hard.

HEHEHEHHE.

NAISE QUOTE.

2011-07-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

BE-YOU-tiful (:

2011-07-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

This is the spongebob balloon I have here in my room, but too bad it isn't flying anymore and it slim down alot :'( but it's still super super adorable so i'm still keeping it now :D .

Ong Li Yin came to KL ! (: and she stayed here for one night , and yes again we were chatting through the whole night . okay that's abit hyperbola xD , we chat until 2 i guess. and the next day we went to midvalley to meet up with jiali but I was feeling super unwell and went back home earlier ><

and I was down with fever , sorethroat and flu for about 3 days ? Thank God there's someone here who is willing to take care of me , uh , literally . xD at least there's someone who is willing to take me to the clinic nearby and buy bread for me when I say I have nothing to eat , thanks (: !

and and my parents actually came all the way up to KL to visit me during that time yknow , just to make sure that I am okay ! Omg that's soooo touched (: ! without telling me earlier somemore, so sweet of them <3 !

2011-07-08T21:12:00.000+08:00

Your phone call made me smile, like, from the bottom of my heart.

Thanks (: !

YESSS.

2011-07-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

you don't know what you're missing.
most probably the best thing you can ever ask for. (Y)
but well, sorry, i feel so sorry for you. because you don't deserve it (: .
I will see you soon then, and I can imagine the look on your face when you know how much fun I am having right now. (:
yes thanks and see you real soon, sucker.

walao that stupid bff who never talk to me unless I do.
you stupid lousy ma tong bff i hope you see this and cry because i think it's quite mean to scold people like this xD .

down with fever + sorethroat + uhhh lemme think, oh ya, flu, for approximately 3 days.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh NAISE.

I miss JB, i miss my beautiful ausmatians and my parents, and my brother, and my friends there. :'(
two more weeks, i hope there's no more sat replacement after that.
I wan to go home real bad :/

thanks for the smile, thanks for everything (:

我在这世界最眷恋的事情就是曾拥抱你

2011-06-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

If you see me learning to fly, please don't blame me, because it's you who let me go.

2011-06-25T22:12:00.003+08:00

I can't stay in my room whole day thinking about how you used to make me smile and laugh. because realizing that you are no longer here for me kills me. and it hurts even more to see you talking about your dream girl that you will next date. awesome? yes obviously she will be.

So tell me, what is wrong and what is right for me to do now?

Should I stay in my room crying for you everyday like how I used to do for the first few weeks back here? you don't know how I made it through those days when all you did is gaming, while I was crying my heart out. To wake up in the morning with heartache, and the first thing that came to my mind was saying morning to you? but what kind of replies i got in return? you just don't understand how it hurts. and yet you told me you still like me and stuffs but it's the distance that broke us apart? and the funniest part is, the ones who accompanied me through my toughest days is not you. Sad to say, but you are the one who cared the least and left me aside as if I was some stranger to you when I needed you the most. I am just trying to make my life better now, am I even wrong? You can talk to her, her and her. But why not me? I don understand, and I guess I will never. I just don't want to be stuck at this point and never get to move on. I was doing a pretty good job until you came accusing me flirting around. Don't you know it hurts? don't you know? can you stop making my life so miserable? you know i still care, you know I still love you. But why did you do this to me? Please don't stop me from this when you can't love me the way I do to you. Please, dont.

Dear Father Lord, if You are listening to me, if You feel my pain, if You know how lost I am, please tell me what I should do. I can't let it go. But I know I have to. Dear Father Lord, please give me strength.

2011-06-25T11:45:00.002+08:00

So tell me what am I suppose to do?
You expect me to sit there thinking about you crying over and over again for you?
I'm just trying to get over you, am I even wrong?
At least I was faithful. At least when I had you, you were the only one that's constantly in my mind.
At least I held on tight until the very last second.
At least I'm glad that it happened, although it didn't work out in the end.
Although people have been telling me the same thing over and over again.
I still think that you're great. But I just can't understand.

:(

2011-06-24T15:27:00.001+08:00

sometimes you feel like slapping yourself because you hurt people unintentionally.

and the way you hurt them is exactly the way how you never ever want to be hurt.

When you don't know what to do but all you can do is to apologize,

but you know perfectly sorry doesnt help at all.

Den I say, I can just eat shit and die.

Nothing to do now so I am gonna blog about the lil things that make my life so wonderful.

HEHEEE.

This is my BFF his name is Ng Shi Kai.

:D :D :D

and he never fails to make me laugh when I'm about to cry. :)

sorry about the ugly face you can just ignore it.

I love my Blackberry, or should I say, WHITEberry?

She's a beauty cause she is fair. :D HEHEHE

This girl is amazing she is always so cheerful and she is super lovable.

I call her Babychua :)

and and, the durian flavour icecream I was holding tasted really nice. :)

Kite-flying with Ausmatians but my kite was too fat and couldn't fly like the other 'slim' kites. :(

actually just want to show you guys my very lala brown hair, and with red high light but obviously the red colour faded away alrd in this picture. This is like the only picture I have where my hair colour can be seen.

And I dyed back for the stupid JPA thingy.

Thinking of dying or highlighting now. :/

My super cute Tam Hui Loon aka Tamtam aka Sotong !

Okay thats all BYEBYE!

ENCHANTED ♥

I have never liked feelings like this.

Did you hear my heart screaming?

Chinese new year!

Some friends, feel just as close as family.

Hahahaha made my day

Our sixth; 18.1.2012

HAHAHA

Now karma has it. :)

we, against the world.

easy to be forgotten.

Smart not hard.

恒等于

Loved.

lady and girl.

Pretending is the best costume.

Reason why you should treat your lady right.

All I want for Christmas is You.

BYE.

w/o you.

star dust.

Nil

Such a kid.

hiatus

You watched me cry.

Her.

11.11.11

my lovely. :)

Effort put in 100%, results shown 0%

mistake made, lesson learnt.

I am very zai.

Dinner :D

can't wait for tomorrow night :DDDD

Despite of all that I've heard.

and that very moment when my heart started to bleed, I knew I could never be the same.

last chance last straw.

There is a difference between sarcasm and bitching.

Don't look at a glass half empty, look at it half full.

so right now this matter is just too complicated for me to handle.

I don't know.

It simply means I do not want to try anymore.

holiday life.

too many emo posts lately? I am so sorry. :/

Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

Seriously, are you that desperate?

annoying chey.

I miss you more than anything

i'm a fcking disaster. FML.

Get me outta here.

FREAK. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING. WHY THE HECK I AM DOING THIS. FREAK.

B for you. (:

there is nowhere like H.O.M.E.

freaking roller coaster.

Be the pandora box.

you know where to find me, you know what to do.

sometimes people build you up.. just to knock you down.

BE-YOU-tiful (:

YESSS.

我在这世界最眷恋的事情 就是曾拥抱你

If you see me learning to fly, please don't blame me, because it's you who let me go.

:(

我在这世界最眷恋的事情就是曾拥抱你